WHY AM I ALWAYS ANGRY?

Why?

Most of the time, i am angry at the one i love the most. It annoys me. I cant control it. Its out of control sometimes. Ive tried to cool it down but it will not satisfies me. If there's nothing i can do with it, i will cry. And it hurts like hell. It drives me nut. Why? Why? Why???? I dont ever want to hurt my love ones. Is there something wrong wimme? I get angry easily. But only with my close ones. Even one slight mistake. This drives me nuts. And then where's my friends? Yea i know, everyone's busy.

Its getting worse each time. I punched the walls. but that doesnt help either. Ruz couldnt stand it. Khdr couldnt too. Maybe thats why. Now Nwa the victim. GAH! I FUCKING HATE THIS. Is it my nature? Ive done a research abt this. I am not the only one feeling this way. There's other too. Is it because im always wanting black things? Is it because of the songs i listen too? All those heavy songs? Ive tried to change. But gosh, i couldnt adapt well. I wanna run away.

March On.

Im trying very hard. Sorry dear... Help me. I feel like a rotten shit. A fucking useless girl. U dont like it when i say that. Im sorry. Im trying to change. its hard. Why must it be me?? Sensitive skin and what laaa.. Not that beautiful. Ugly teeth. Small eyes. LOW SELF ESTEEM. Not smart.

Whatever laa. Bye.