I never thought things could go bad. For now it have become worse. Ive tried to pick up all the pieces, but i keep falling. Time & again. As if tommorow can never be mine to enjoy. As if hapiness is a lie in my life. Im still holding on. Keep keeping faith. But what am i holding on to? A none existing hope? Ive wrote letters. Who am i writing it to? Who's reading it? Am i talking to myself? Or is there someone out there that meant to read it? Someone i thought that would care enough to sacrifise his time for me? Is there such person? Or is it just me? Waiting for a miracle? Is there such thing as miracle? I dont know..
No. The person im writing to is here. In my heart. But he's faraway. He's falling down. I held my hand, but he's not grabbing it. Why isnt he grabbing it? Why is he acting so cold? Am i a ghost? Tainted dreams? Fading dreams you said. All these while, the dreams are just dreams? Why am i still holding on? Why am i still here? Standing still. Waiting. For one more chance. For one more hope. For you. Maybe, its meant to be. Maybe, i need to be stronger. Maybe, he needs to be stronger too. Yes, the future is important. How about everyone around you? Arent they important too? How about me? Did i just fade in you? All these years, till today, youve made it thru every sadness. You made it here with them? Or alone? You can never do this alone. I guess, im dreaming again. Or believing in something tts not there. Tears had been shed. I am still fighting and fighting. Where's the prize? Did i win? Where am i? Where's the prize? Its floating in the air. Its wandering around. Flying aimlessly. Where are you? Where are you? Dont you say goodbye. Dont say goodbye to me. Never thought you'd leave me alone. Come on! Stand up. Look around you. Its not only about the future. Take my hand. Please.. Take my hand. I'll never let go. I'll bring us to land of happiness and joy. I promise that.